Why can't i be normal like everyone else?

hi my name is hailee i wish i could be normal like my peers but it seems impossible i feel so inferior to everyone even little kids seem more mature than me no one ever talks to me wont take the time to get to know me and i get frustrated all my peers around me get all kinds of friend requests on facebook and my yearbook or twitter and i get non i bet you if i was to delete everyone who didn't talk to or associate with me i would have next to no one its really sad i cant talk to anyone or have a normal conversation i don't know what to say or even understand what they are talking about for that matter its like my brain doesn't comprehend whats being said around me its been like that since grade school i was the loner with no friends what so ever they ignored me treated me like i was deased or something i never got invited to hangout or have sleepovers and it really had an affect on me its pretty pathetic when you know everyone and everything about them but they know nothing about you Orr even know who you are like you never existed and going into high school it seemed like it was the same thing all over again it never ends its like a vicious cycle girls were lying about me getting me into trouble with everyone for things i didn't do i mean it was so bad that i kept to myself alot girls would invite me to go hang with them around the block from me and would only do so so they could bully me insult me and tell there parents what a bad influence i was like this girl i used to know she would have others break her toys and say that i of all people did it so her mom would come to my house all irate and yell at me it was so bad her mother once came to school and threatened me on the property then another girl who was much younger than me called the police because she claimed i threw a snowball at her face and gave her a black eye all in half an hour of getting of the bus with her out front of my house she used make-up and eyeliner to make the black eye seem real then the next day came to school with no black eye it was just red because she had been rubbing it with her wool mitten and because i had just turned thirteen at the time her mother could have charged me and got away with it seeing as i was of legal age but thank god she didn't also i got slapped alot as a kid from this girl me and my bestie hung around with she was so snotty and rude that one day i just told her to shut up and knock it off so she slapped me in the face really hard and she was alot younger than i was so i didn't of course slap back because that wasn't the right thing to do it did however leave a mark for a few minutes of her hand print all red well i told her mother and she didn't say a word to her kid like it was acceptable or somethingss also as a child iwasn't aloudd to do anything with anyone i would ask my mother and it was always no she refusedd to go with me anywhere or even spend time with me like wasn'tnt her daughter she calls me fat lazy a **** a stupid ****** raises remotes to my face tried to slap me she even gets my dad going to the point where he yells at me and tells me off instead of her everyone takes her side i mean this woman is a real piecece of work she insultsFriendsinds to the poiint where they stop talking to me all together she insults everyone and if tdon'tdont like it to bad i moved out on my own once and i had no choice but to come back becuase she was threating them all kinds shed call them and say she was gonna commit suicide try to give herself a heart attack and blame me so i was kicked out of where i was living five hours away she even got my family hating my guts my own aunt disowned me becuase people here intown where talking **** about her as was my mother and she heard about it from a few friends like it was my fault my mother was saying what she did but it gets worse this woman took 3600 from me when i was going to school i was giving her 400 a month for a car like saving for one so when i moved out ten months later no car no money she said it was all for rent but never told me that untill the day i left home so i was lied to and to this day she refuses to give me receipts and that as in 2008-2009 she says because i am a native and that was there money i was giving her i cant claim it because its tax free on the reserve not off the reserve and i live off so shes trying to cheat me out of the money my mother ha been so emotionally and mentally damaging to me for 22 years and ive lost all hope at a normal life i don't know how to have conversations with peers my age or a bit younger as i have said i cant even kiss a guy do anything like that because i so messed up inside i try and talk to people andi feel stupid like they re more mature than i am and i feel so inferior i never wanna leave my house or converse with anyone i feel like i may say the wrong thing or not know what to say or how to comment to things they talk about someone please help m