Allah is your god. is it that hard to accept that? he is loving god but also punisher,inflictor,destroyer.?

ALLAH destroyed many nations and people truout history. and he will send hell those who stay on the side of satan.he creates disasters,death,famine on this planet.he creates beauty,good also. i love him so much and i afraid him so much also. afraid of him, makes me a good person. i know that he watches my every movement. if u dont feel the way i do you cant make good people enough.