Hey please read the whole piece i need some advice on this issue from my childhood?

I think you should talk to someone about this in "real life" like a teacher, a close relative, or maybe a nice neighbor you have. I think that will help you let all of the feeling out and maybe they will give you advice on how to make friends and stuff. I think if you just be friendly and nice then maybe you'll make some friends. Don't worry hun' I'm sure everything will be ok :)